何も変わらないのに

Hello…
my dear Beloved, 


What are you're looking at?


Today, Your words become no more than words, and  your face seem expressionless.
I wonder why don't you answer my questions?
You keep in silence.... I don’t need your sympathy
I like, i like , i like everything of you.
I'm so attracted to you,to the danger of drowning.


See you, look at you...Even I understand the disadvantage of being there...
                I have just become blind...
                I still rely on you.... even though...you

                                                    Loveless

Let Go of My Hand with lyrics

Tu, la persona a quien mas quiero!

A la persona a quien mas quiero へ:

Como estas el dia de hoy?

Apesar de que es un dia frio, esta calido tu corazon hoy?

Me dices que te quedaras conmigo para toda la vida, 
dices que me quieres, que no y otra vez si. Yo te creo todo, incluso aquello que me hiere.
Me pregunte esta noche~ Si camino hacia donde tu estas, es el cielo? 

Aunque me tú me mientes en la cara. Quiero cegarme con tus palabras y creer en esa pequena esperanza.

Mi mundo se ilumina cada dia solo porque tu estas en el.
Cuando me dices "Estas bien?" o "pense en ti" o quizas tan solo me llamas por mi nombre.
siento que eso es todo lo que necesito
Quiero tomar tu mano, aunque sea mentira me haces sentir viva.
aunque esta esperanza no sea real, siento que respiro

Mientes tan bien, que he llegado a sonar por repetidas noches que estas junto a mi.

Un sueno tan real del cual no quisiera despertar jamas.

Es acaso que dentro de los suenos el mundo es aun mas feliz que en la realidad?

Tu, la persona mas especial para mi en este mundo, toma mi mano, corre conmigo.

Lejos, muy lejos, corre junto a mi a aquel lugar donde comenzo este sueno.

Mi persona amada, permiteme seguir mirando en direccion hacia ti.

Believe...I will be always there looking at you.

My forever beloved:


How are you?, I had stopped writing to you for a while. I'm sorry.
Let's talk tonight...


I want you to hear everything that I have to say, even though one night isn't enough to hear it all.
In our hearts, there should be nothing which we can't tell each other. 
In my head there is so, so much, but in one word everything is about "YOU"


I want to see you, sleep in your shoulder.
What do you want me to do.... Where shall I go tomorrow? 
If you want me besides you, I'll go anywhere...

My dear Beloved, I've gotten used to the meaning of happiness, just by being next to you.
I can't see any other way.....any other person but you....
Without thinking about anything else.

I will run to you, even from this place away from you, I want to run and see your lively smile.

contemplating your expression while you do what you love the most...

Seeing you.....

To see you....

I will run to you....

My forever beloved...

Beloved:


It is official I want you to be with me....
There is nobody who can take your place.
No matter what...

Accept me one more time.....

Beloved, I miss you.

My Dear and Forever Beloved:

Are you doing well today?

I hope you’re having a day without hard moments.

After our last conversation, Does your heart today feel the same way my does?

Yesterday I dreamed of you, I was there standing and you were there beside me.

We hold hands and walk along through the lake in front of us. Our feet walk at the same time.

and the sound of nature surrounded us.

My dear Beloved, Pucon, you and I.

Here's my song for you today...

It is Called "Vuelvo"=Eng (Came back)

Mejoraste eternidad
Y olvidaste mi realidad

Hoy ya no puedo
Creer en ti és algo tóxico
Pero borrarte de mi mente
És más difícil que existir

Renunciaste al porvenir
Me mataste y reviví

Hoy ya no puedo
Creer en ti és algo tóxico
Pero borrarte de mi mente
És más difícil que existir
Y ya no puedo resistir

Vuelvo a encontrarme
En el mismo lugar
Donde inició
Con mi guitarra
Y una lágrima
Que se secó
Vuelvo a encontrarme
En el mismo lugar
Donde inició
Con mi guitarra
Y una lágrima

Proclamaste rivalidad
Y encontraste en mi hostilidad

いい一日でした。。。

My Dear Beloved:


This peaceful view brings me only memories about you.




Because it is just fine like this....My dear and forever beloved:
Thanks
Since I have met you I became able to laugh euphorically and cry as never before.
I memorised your likes and dislikes,I also cooked and did the laundry for you.
ねえ～Beloved  I'm trying my best not to cry today, "またね”I want to be by your side.
大好き大好き！愛しています！I love you like this, Are you aware of it?
This is my unrequited love just...for you.

今日は”行かないで下さい”って言いたかったWhile my chest contracts painfully.
I want to be next to you, taking your hand, walking together.
Being the perfect couple that people look saying "うらやましいな～”
Beloved look at me, with a little of you, it's fine 
                                  My Beloved, Beloved, the only one for me.
                                             I'm sure, someday God will grant my wish.


                                                         Until that day I will keep making my best for you.


                                                                                                                   　　     Loveless

Nice view, sea in front of me, and my thinks about you

昨日はこの景色見ていました。

As in everything I do, I wish I could have being there with you.

My dear Beloved, are you having a good day?

I.....I'm a fool

My dear Beloved:


ねえ～知ってる？友達とあなたのこと話していたよね。As Always my topic to talk is you.
I have being surrounded by many emotions lately.
at the end I only realized how stupid I am.
You Mademosille talk to me about your sadness, and i wonder if it is my fault.
If it is I'm sorry, however I'm suffer more than you cuz of my stupidness, Leaning by the window,
I softly mutter the same words again...

I'm trying to become a good friend for the person I love the most, 
being through pain to happiness, from euphoric laughing to trembling hands.
wanted to cry but had found no shoulder to cry on.




My dear Beloved, At least until you don't need me anymore....
Although things haven't changed in pleasant memories, I want to be there for you.

^_^Danke!, danke! ^_^

My Forever Beloved....

ヘ(^_^ヘ)(ノ^_^)ノ

How are you doing today?

It is raining over here. (Luv rain^_^)

I quite started liking the idea of being your friend...

Of course it hurts like hell...but I can bear it

However I'm happy to be able to call you and tell you about my day, listen your voice and know that you are just doing great.

I like you saying sweet things to cheer me up when I was sleepy.

I like you allowing me to call you, every time I want.

I love you answering my calls.

        I have enjoyed so much, our 6am conversations...Thanks, thanks for being there...

　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　Thanks for letting me be there...for you.

　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　My Beloved one....

　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　ありがとう。

Neee~nyann nyann

My Forever Beloved:

I'm looking only at you....
このままずっとあなたのことだけ愛したいです。

写真のねこちゃんのようななりましょうか？

Crazy afternoon...

My Beloved, far and distant Beloved






I'm just studying today,
じつは、Trying to...
According to this week schedule I must take JPLT and TOEIC one more time as a general examination.
Ahhh I started to hate TOEIC!! I hate studying for the same test you wanted to pass!! 
It brings me sooo many memories about you...
You, and your "I will improve my English and someday I will take 700pts"..
Do you remember?
You used to do a lot for me, and I'm not good at anything but languages.
Ahh, I always wanted to teach you....
Maybe during those precious days I should have done it, instead of concentrating in my own learning.
My Dear Beloved, I wanted to hear your voice, again and again, so I'd tried to call you. As I expected, you didn'tt take my call...

Opposite wind

My Forever Beloved：

I love this picture, the last happy moment with you, 覚えてるかしら～

Even now I'm waiting; I stop in front of the window alone.

Waiting...

Have you close your heart to me already? 

Why the more I chase you, the more you run away?

Yesterday it was a long dream,,,,

The first timeI meet that person I was close yet far away, I was so charmed, and I loved that person from the beginning, however I couldn't see why. 

I was walking under the sunny sky taking that person's hand. 

"Hey, Beloved, from now on you are my property. As long as I am beside you, you can't just go. Look at me. No matter what, I love you, I swear to you!" was the last thing I said

I hear that voice, woke up then suddenly I remember that person was not there anymore.

That was a good\bad dream.

My Forever Beloved,今日は元気かしら～

いい一日でしたか？

ありがとう。。。

My Forever Beloved


You know there is your picture on my cellphone.
Today It ringed and I was so happy to see your picture on it.
Without saying anything I understood that you were Ok.
Gradually you became far and away from me, and my hand can't reach you.
I am happy to know that you are Ok as always, Even though I can hear your voice, your writing is enough to know.
My Beloved, Keep smiling...


 I....more than thinking back upon, I want to forget that you are there.
 I will keep loving you in my inner emptiness. That's enough.


Loveless.

不安で 不安で…

To My Forever Beloved.

We are walking different roads now, but sometimes,I still want to run to you....

I cried miserably `cause I tried to forget about us, but I still think about it.
The sun is shine and there are people who worry more about me, as you never had.

you, you, damn you...I need to know about you, how are you, what are u doing?

Last time I was right next to you crying like a baby

Sometimes I dream about it, imagining you and me together.

You lie to me once and again, but I'm still your puppy.

Every time you said something sweet to me, there I go with the tail between the legs.

Will you pet me?

なでなでしてもらえないでしょうか？

I'm staring at the phone that doesn't ring

Oh my god, I'm so fucking lonely with you?

I'm praying for your happiness. I know that i can't return

Loveless.

This song is called "Al final" "At the end..."

Cuantas veces intente alejarme de tu red.
muchas mas de las que yo recuerdo
blanco viste tu obsesión
negro es tu corazón
encademas mi absoluta libertad

Me envenenas de placer
diluyendo tu traición
y me creo fuera de peligro
tengo ganas de vivir
luego me quiero morir
mi equilibrio tambalea en un circo fatal

*Porque al final el dolor sera vital
Porque al final el dolor sera vitalidad

A mi lado siempre estas acechando mi afliccion
lista para atormentar mi calma
me desvias cuando voy al encuentro con mi ser
y otra vez destruyes la esperanza de llegar
de salvarme y escapar
Condenaste mi existir
recluido en la ciudad
venerandome como un pagano
sepultado sin soñar

Practicing Minuet in G major

My Mademoiselle,

I was practicing this song today...

Once I learn it, I want to play it for you.

Would you listen it ?

Pour Moi

My Mademoiselle

From now, I wonder what should I say to you,
Although its embarrassing and awkward I just want to say Thanks,

Thanks, for coming to me. Thanks for worry about me,

I quite hated myself today when you said "I don't care who is making you suffer, I care cuz i don't want you to suffer".

Thanks for those words.

Because you are there, I wont be lonely
Thanks god for giving me someone who at least care a little bit...

This thankful heart, stay here so I will thank you for as long as I live.

                                                                    Loveless.

Rainy day....

 My forever Beloved:

今日はごめんなさい。

I just want to run away from you, forget your sympathy.
It's shameful. The truth is everything about you is so painful. 

I feel so stupid picking your calls once and again, listening to you, meanwhile I try to do not cry.

Don't you know how painful is hearing your voice??

Are you Bipolar??　or you just like playing around?

最初、”Me, the one you love won't come back" その後"you reminds my sister" "like a mother"

最後に”愛してます”　つらいと思わないの？

I'm sorry, If I hurt you saying No to you.....

My dear beloved you know, that I love you unchangingly.

Even though you know that, You asked me to be friends,It was so painful, i hate you at that moment..

友達？I'm sorry, 考えさせて下さい.

To be your friend, i have to move on first, clear my mind, forget the hard times.

Whatever happens I want to be there for you.

If you need a friend...I will make my best to think about you in that way....But not now.

Someday...later.

Now on, I just  want to live my life looking at that same scenery over and over, 

Loveless

The tears and the smiles

Many days have passed since you and I broke up
but somehow it still seems like it was just yesterday
Will this sad feeling  eventually goes away??....
Today, You've broken my heart again, just like you always do.
However, I have no tears tonight....I'm not crying today.


My dear beloved, I want to hear your lies until I get tired of you
Let me hear you.
I saw your pictures while I was on the train, It is funny, you are expressionless.
I love you,
I love the past, Your smile, your tears, your sleeping face, your voice, your body, My own image reflected in your eyes. 
Somehow I wish I could see those expressions again....Maybe not in your face next time.




Loveless

いい一日でしたか？

My Dear Beloved:

Did you have a good day?　　　　　　
Today, red flowers for you....