もうすぐ～眠りたい

I can't help it, behind those trying-to-be strong 実は、淋しいよ
淋しくて死にそうなくらいで、I start looking at the white wall in front of me....wondering
about the meaning of things..意味あるかしら～
今夜 I wish i was not able to think, about anything, just be.. just nothing.


寝る前に何考えているって聞かれたら、”やっぱり、今夜死にたいです”


幸せでしたのに、why does it need to be ended? 
I feel so miserable crying now, because of the pain, なぜこんなに辛いの？
Just as I thought, I am lonely...
There is so many people walking and smiling outside but I feel so fucking lonely. 
I wanna be as happy as they are??

Today, let me die...
Tomorrow, I will keep on
Keep on~ because I don't wanna forget anything, not even a piece of memories, 

Until we meet again....